After losing our second Daughter, Joeli Grace, for unknown reasons at 5 months pregnant, Sadie's pregnancy was very scary for us. We were concerned about everything not knowing what had happened to Joeli, we had nothing to fear so to speak and everything to fear so to speak too.
After a loss some people like to keep their pregnancy quiet until they are farther along, but I wanted everyone to know as soon as possible because I wanted as many prayers for this baby's health as possible!
So at just 8 weeks, 2 months, we announced our sweet growing blessing!
I conceived Sadie almost EXACTLY the same time I had conceived Joeli the year before. Literally, 3 days apart in September. That scared me so much. I don't believe in bad omens or karma or any of that silly talk, however, this seemed too ironic. I was so upset about the dates lining up almost exactly. I remember worrying the nurse at the doctors office may give me Joeli's same due date. I even told her if it lands on June 18th please just give me another date anyway, just lie to me. But she said, "I don't even have to lie to you, the due date is June 15th." Literally three days apart. Looking back I took this as such a negative thing, but now, now I look at this similar date occurrence was Gods way of redeeming every single day that the enemy had stolen joy from and He was restoring unto us joy and peace and hope. And He was giving us good memories in place of the sad and awful ones.
We prayed and prayed, so many tear-filled prayers for the healthy delivery of this baby. And when we arrived at the half way mark, 5 months, the same time we had lost Joeli the year before, we praised God for a healthy growing baby. And we found out, it was a GIRL, a healthy growing little girl!
During our delivery with Sadie everything was going great. We had one nurse in with us for several hours. No need for doctors of other nurses. But then all of the sudden, within a moment there were about 10-15 doctors and nurses crowding our room and alarms going off and people frantic and I just remember being exhausted and not really even knowing what was happening. There was mention of an emergency c-section and it was in those moments intense doubts and fears swelled my mind. I remember distinctly looking at the Doctor and I said, "just take me back to the OR now and get her out alive PLEASE! Don't let me lose another little girl!" And he looked at me and promised me he would not let that happen if he had anything to say about it and that if we need the c-section he will do that immediately. We prayed and prayed out loud! God help our baby! They had me get onto my hands and knees and lean different ways trying to help the baby's heart rate to rise and steady. And sure enough, after several minutes it finally leveled out and the entire "team" of medical professionals slowly left our room. However, only a little later a whole NICU team was called back in because Meconium was discovered. After the long journey, Sadie May (which means beautiful gift of God) was finally born. She was not allowed to cry or be held for the first 5-10 minutes (which seemed like an eternity) as the NICU team worked on her. But finally, she was in my arms!
The miracle of life!
It is undeniably a miracle when it all works out and God showed us the treasure it is through this journey!
Here is our first family picture after Sadie was born! God protected her and gave us her as a blessing to help in the process of healing our hearts after losing Joeli Grace. Sadie was the sweetest, happiest and easiest little baby ever! She brought peace and joy back into our hearts! What a true delight she is! Today we celebrate her birthday and the supernatural story it is!
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